Solace (Poem by Screech)

Solace

I create worlds,

Just to let people destroy them.

I've been doing it for quite long,

It's the same now as it was then.

They called me mad,

They said I shouldn't do it.

“It does more harm than good, man.”

Well then why does it keep working?

It takes its toll,

But I keep doing it to accoy them.

It helps me differently, I learn.

I've learned more now than I did then.

They just run away,

Without even saying goodbye,

“You shouldn't have helped”, they say,

I still don't understand why.

Sometimes I think,

Maybe I'm the wrong one here,

The odd one out.

Maybe everyone else is what they say,

And I'm dumb to stay in doubt.

Failure is the best way to learn,

But maybe I've never learned,

Maybe I deserve this solitude.

Some things are meant to live,

I've been living.

Not thinking when I should be thinking,

Going off my instinct,

Not feeling what I should be feeling.

I make people appreciate solitude,

But I think it's time for me to find solace.

Build a world for me,

And find someone to share it with.

Maybe forevermore, who knows?

I'm not one to set these goals.

It's not a crime,

To adapt to the how and when,

I stuck close to my values through time,

It's harder now than it was then.

Every time I try to be on my own,

They scream bloody murder,

“Something's wrong if you want to stay home.”

“When in Rome, be a great Alexander.”

If they keep on trying,

To break me, I just might.

My own head will end up lying,

Make me a pariah from myself,

I'm closer to losing now than I was then.

Do they arrive at the same conclusions as me,

At the same time as me?

Or it's just twisted and crazed,

A worrisome game by fate.

Maybe it's a pre-planned conspiracy,

If so, I'm an open book,

And everything I've done is just fallacy.

Insecurities anew,

I have another concoction to brew,

Another world to build,

But is it worth it?

What's this one going to bring?

Will I get to Mariana's Trench?

Or will I drown,

Like every diver,

Or will I be lynched?

Hope I can focus on my own problems,

By helping with their troubles.

Honestly, this is going great,

I've seen a balance of love and hate.

I don't know what I can save them from,

But I try to keep up, I try to stay.

I try to listen, I try to help them, always.

Not much I can do if they go south,

Migrating is their decision to make.

I’m just here for the ride,

Move alongside,

While the days go by,

Hoping to find,

Someone for the otherside,

Stop the mad decline,

From all that I’ve left behind,

To speak my mind,

Spend some time,

Become one of a kind,

Let fates intertwine.

No Rush (Poem by Screech)

No Rush

It's 3am, it's late,

I know you’re probably awake.

I know you're in a hurry,

But don't lay it all to waste.

I sometimes wonder,

Do you know where you're going?

It seems as if you're flowing,

Slowly but steadily predicting,

Every move, every time,

I know it's very addicting.

Scream, aim, fire,

No pain. No surrender.

I know you've not been here before,

You've never had to fight dirty.

You need to know more,

And you're trying to fly,

Where eagles dare to soar.

You're rowing a boat,

Upstream.

Where the salmons rest their souls.

Where the sharks come to die,

And the water is barely enough to drown,

It's the vultures’ feeding ground.

The time I have might be finite,

A million possibilities have run through my mind.

There's just one where everything is just right,

So here I am, lying awake at night,

Thoughts racing at the speed of light.

You've moved to a toxic wasteland,

Full of irradiated anomalies,

Surrounded by minefields, and

Electric fences to keep you trapped inside.

There's just quantum,

There's no solace.

There's nowhere to run,

You're under palace arrest.

Always an unrest,

A riot, a rebellion, a mutiny,

A coup carried out beautifully.

I know you're scared,

Who isn't?

Fear rules my days too.

I hope I get to know you,

Like the world doesn't.

I hope you don't overthink this through,

I know that I haven't.

Some magic,

Some mind games,

Some truth, some mysteries,

Some tripwires and thought trains,

And I promise, no ambiguities.

I'm sorry if splitting lanes,

Caused splitting headaches.

I get a little defensive,

Part of my soul gets afflicted.

You've been riding on your know how,

How about you start to look within?

Find some absolution.

I know you can't help it,

But sleuthing isn't helping.

I shouldn't push it.

I know I said,

People don't need to be in your life,

To learn from them.

But I hope I inspire and impact,

Some idiosyncrasies.

Start some inceptions,

I hope I can help you cease the day,

Help you find your perceptions.

I had my questions,

I had my doubts.

I hope it's straightforward,

This time around.

This one's gonna be short,

I've said everything I must,

Don't need to write as much.

You already know,

It all boils down to trust.

I'm ready to ride through the blazes,

Through the city of dust.

But let's be for a few,

No rush,

Take it slow and steady,

Get a little familiar,

Get in touch.

So when it's time to go further,

We can still be us.

Sad State Of Affairs (Poem by Screech)

Sad State Of Affairs

It's a sad state of affairs,

When you know you don't care,

And the universe does everything,

To get you to change your ways.

It's a sad twist of fate,

When you dance to drift away,

And the universe does everything,

To kill the music in your brain.

It's a sad little game,

When people avoid my gaze,

And the universe does everything,

To avoid a face-to-face.

It's a seemingly sad line,

When we can't match our time,

And the universe does everything,

To still have her in my sight.

It's a sad state of affairs,

When the old leaders are “angry”,

And the universe does everything,

To direct their rage at me.

It's a sad and awkward silence,

When the new and old refuse to speak,

And the universe does everything,

To deafen the ones I seek.

It's a sad state of affairs…

You know what?

Fuck the scheme,

I have too many words to fit.

Let me tell you something,

It's exactly what it seems.

You keep asking me why,

So hear me when I speak.

My work here is done,

I've been overstaying my welcome.

But this place just wants me so,

Here I'll stay, probably forevermore.

Yes, we can't be the same,

Don't get me wrong,

I loved the moments that we shared.

But I don't want to keep that up.

I don't want that side of me to show up.

I want to share it with someone else.

I thought it was you, I was wrong, I'm sorry.

I've already started a new chapter in my story.

Everything is all written out there anyway.

I know it'll make sense, just read the play-by-play.

I've told you, I'm here all day,

In case you have doubts about what I have to say.

The universe hasn't helped,

That's for sure.

Holy shit, how much have I written?

This has been my longest running show!

So much of my text has been about us.

Probably because I couldn't go AWOL.

Lately I've been feeling a bit crazy,

Been feeling a little uneasy.

Feels like I've got this anxiety,

Sometimes I forget to even breathe.

Hyperventilate, get dizzy,

How the hell do I keep myself busy?

I should've left early,

Just to leave it alone.

I should've put on my earphones,

And blazed away on the road.

It's surprising how stupid I can be.

Figuring out the right things,

Because that's what I want to see.

I've lost and found the answers,

Though somewhat late,

It's surprising how I feel in control,

While I still believe in fate.

You say they know more,

Of course they do,

They've been around a lot more than you.

I made it so, remember?

I told you so.

We used to talk,

But wait, what do you know?

We've drifted away.

I'm not coming back honey,

I hope you know this already.

If you don't, well,

Here's a rude awakening.

Oh it's a sad state of affairs,

When you put yourself into situations,

And you don't stop or think or care,

Before you make your decisions.

Impulse is your destruction,

I did what I thought was okay,

And here's another serenade,

Before I go back on my merry way.

Jesus, I thought I was done,

But I just can't stop this game.

Cat and mouse in a beer house,

The only thing more obvious,

Would be me throwing out names.

What the hell is going on?

I want to run, Miss Shrink,

I don't want to share a thing.

Is that what you really think?

You really believe that, don't you?

Shit, I wasn't clear enough I guess.

What else can I expect,

From someone who always says yes.

Doesn't know, to say no,

Oops, did I give up a secret?

Processes parted with power, punk princess.

That life is over.

Get cryptic, create craft works,

With the cicerone,

The companion, and the cigarettes.

Is it wrong to create a bubble now?

Or was it wrong back then?

Wait, don't answer that, it's rhetorical,

In case you missed it again.

Don't point fingers when,

People tell you just what you began.

Not reporting crime is crime itself,

The first thing you should've done is spoken,

You made a mess leaving things unsaid.

Go on, go back,

Ignore everything I've said,

Again.

I've been telling you this,

Clear as day, in bold text,

I don't want any of this,

Don't make me stay.

I'm in pain.

Stop asking me if I'm sane.

I don't want to talk,

And I don't want to call.

Let me climb up when I fall.

Don't want anything to do with anything.

Here I go, once and for all.